A generic quote someone I know on Whatsapp attributes to Harvey MacKay: A dream is just a dream. A goal is a dream with a plan and a deadline.

I started this blog along with the intention of reaching two different goals. Both of these goals are very similar in fundamental nature. They require me to put in enormous amounts of discipline and require that I work deeply. And since I cannot allocate huge monolithic chunks of my life to them as of now, it becomes important that I build a discipline of daily effort towards them, where I allocate a set amount of hours in a day. The poorly understood compounding should do the rest of my work afterward if am honest with myself. The first of these goals has a much much earlier deadline and is something I cannot even reveal or discuss at length as of now. The second of these is to master the art of writing. Starting the blog was a part of reaching this second goal. It does not form the whole picture of reaching the second goal but it is an important part of the process and the first one at that. I have been regretting not writing enough or at all for as long as I can remember now and I have finally been doing it with this blog.

Unless the first goal is not in a crisis that is. You see, the blog was started with the intention that my hours at night would be allocated towards the first goal and my hours in the early morning towards this blog. But due to laziness, exhaustion after work and various other excuses I could cite, I was failing with my more urgent, more time-intensive first goal at the same time I was succeeding with the second. And I could not stop feeling the guilt towards doing so. Which culminated last week in me consciously deciding to not blog until I got sorted with the schedule and execution of my nightly hours. Which I am relieved to have finally done last night and hence this post.

This is not to say I will stop my daily blog whenever my nightly hours miss or there is a change in the schedule. Only that the satisfaction that comes with writing this blog is not whole unless I am satisfied with my work on the first goal as well. Both these goals are brothers and squandering one may as well kill the other but for different reasons. The daily blog meanwhile resumes and stays resumed.

See you tomorrow,
Avi.